Anonymous asked: You should feel that pain after what you've done to Darian that dat. & all after that. Shame on you.

Goddamn not this again. I’ve had enough panic attacks for the past two days, okay? Leave me alone for the rest of this week. I can’t handle this right now. 

Since I made the biggest mistake of my life. Leaving that Monday morning with Kat to go to Alabama. I’ll never forget it. I’ll never forget any detail of what happened that entire week. The ride there. What I ate. When we got there. Everything I packed. Every song that played on the radio, most of which I can’t stand to hear now. The smell of the lake. How many times I cut under the full moon. His name. I know it was my fault. I chose to drink. I chose to flirt. I didn’t know it would still hurt to this day. It was my fault. It’s the most vivid memory I have, even considering how much I drank, I still remember everything after a year.